9/23/22: 164.6lbs! I’m a yoyo.
Went out for a run, was actually feeling good, then at .62 mi I corrected my form and started to push it a little going up a hill. I had a “let’s do this!” attitude. Then I felt a small pop in my right hip followed by sharp pain. So I limped the rest of the way home. So…
1.07mi 15:45 new total: 36.82/50.
I felt the pain in my hip worsen over the past couple of weeks. In fact last night I tried to really stretch the area and I even tried to foam roll the area with my kleen canteen, but hard to get in the right spot. And today I think it’s now no longer just a sore muscle, it’s injured. So am I going to be able to reach my 50 mile goal this month? I’m not sure.
Also… I found out via Facebook today, that my cousin died from liver failure. She’s been sick for three weeks. No one told me anything. I read someone’s post saying RIP. I am shocked and heartbroken. So heartbroken.
I’m tired today. There’s something going around. Thankfully I don’t have the array of symptoms my family have. I’m just really, really tired. I see many of my fellow bees are under the weather lately too. I suspect the more we all reemerge into life outside of our bubbles, the more sickness we’ll experience until we’ve reacclimated to the germs we used to be so familiar with.
And… a minute is never longer than the one spent trying to hold a pose like a plank or a splits hold. Lol!
Lost another friend today. That’s three in less than two months. I didn’t want to work out today. I don’t want to do anything. I don’t understand what all this is for. If the outcome is written, and the battle is won, why put all of us through this. So much of life is a struggle. For some the word struggle is insult to injury (I think of the Ukrainian civilians suffering at the hands of Russian soldiers, and so many others). And my own struggle is relentless. What’s it all for.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Life can be really horrible sometimes. You're not alone in feeling that way. Please surround yourself with any and all support systems that you can. Always reach out if you need any help.