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Well done!
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Congratulations on 6 months! 
LOVE the Buffy quote! We're also re-watching, great TV series
LOVE the Buffy quote! We're also re-watching, great TV series
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Congratulations on 6 months!!!! 
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@Laura Rainbow Dragon I'm pretty sure it means "feed me." She's a cat of two words. Either that, or she's saying other things in cat that humans will never be able to understand like "I want you to look at me, but if you try to pet me or interact with me in any way I will run away and hide - NO I SAID PAY ATTENTION TO ME, STOP GETTING DISTRACTED"
@Antheia & Colossus it is a very good show! I'm on my first watch (but I already know most of the major plotlines) and I'm trying to see if I can get through it before my mom's birthday in August. She reallllly wants me to watch the last few episodes with her (she watched most of it with my sisters, but the sibs moved out before they made it all the way through season seven). Don't know if I'll make it, but I'm gonna give it my best shot
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Thank you everyone
@Antheia & Colossus it is a very good show! I'm on my first watch (but I already know most of the major plotlines) and I'm trying to see if I can get through it before my mom's birthday in August. She reallllly wants me to watch the last few episodes with her (she watched most of it with my sisters, but the sibs moved out before they made it all the way through season seven). Don't know if I'll make it, but I'm gonna give it my best shot
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Thank you everyone
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Sunday, February 23rd, 2025
Power pose, day #10
60 Days of HIIT, day #13
HAMSTRING STRETCHING
Caught: Smoliv + Goldeen + Vulpix
day #181
Monday, February 24th, 2025
One minute yoga, day #1
Power pose, day #11
60 Days of HIIT, day #14
30 Days of LIIT, day #16
DD, 20 jumping lunges, day #55
Standing abs, day #8
day #182
Tuesday, February 25th, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #15
30 Days of LIIT, day #17
Power pose, day #12
One minute yoga, day #2
Standing abs, day #9
day #183
Story of the day:
So when I went to bed last night, there was a suspicious shape in the doorway of my bedroom.
A few minutes later, I hear the quiet sneaky-snikkety pitter patter of feline feet on the floor.
A pause. Then a sneaky jump on the bed.
A few minutes later, I feel a gentle paw on my leg. A few moments later, another sneaky-sneaky paw on my leg.
Then there’s a weight on me, approximately equal to the weight of a full grown cat. She sneak-sneak-sneakity walks along me a little way, stands there several long minutes just to be sure, and finally, having satisfied herself that I’m properly asleep, she curls up and makes herself comfortable, purring quietly.
Apparently awake humans is useless as cat bed.
She seems convinced I have no idea she’s been sneaking onto my bed and cuddling me while I'm "asleep". In fact, cat cuddles are the only reason I leave my door open at night (not that it’s a choice, when I don’t she wakes me up meowing unhappily at the closed bedroom door). It’s sooo funny she thinks she has to be sneaky about it, when I fake sleep on purpose because otherwise she loses patience and doesn't do her adorable midnight sneak.
If she needs to think she’s good at being sneaky, good at sneaky she shall be.
(One of the benefits is that I've pretty much stopped using my phone in bed. Even a cat isn't tricked THAT easily.)
Power pose, day #10
60 Days of HIIT, day #13
HAMSTRING STRETCHING
Caught: Smoliv + Goldeen + Vulpix
day #181
Monday, February 24th, 2025
One minute yoga, day #1
Power pose, day #11
60 Days of HIIT, day #14
30 Days of LIIT, day #16
DD, 20 jumping lunges, day #55
Standing abs, day #8
day #182
Tuesday, February 25th, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #15
30 Days of LIIT, day #17
Power pose, day #12
One minute yoga, day #2
Standing abs, day #9
day #183
Story of the day:
So when I went to bed last night, there was a suspicious shape in the doorway of my bedroom.
A few minutes later, I hear the quiet sneaky-snikkety pitter patter of feline feet on the floor.
A pause. Then a sneaky jump on the bed.
A few minutes later, I feel a gentle paw on my leg. A few moments later, another sneaky-sneaky paw on my leg.
Then there’s a weight on me, approximately equal to the weight of a full grown cat. She sneak-sneak-sneakity walks along me a little way, stands there several long minutes just to be sure, and finally, having satisfied herself that I’m properly asleep, she curls up and makes herself comfortable, purring quietly.
Apparently awake humans is useless as cat bed.
She seems convinced I have no idea she’s been sneaking onto my bed and cuddling me while I'm "asleep". In fact, cat cuddles are the only reason I leave my door open at night (not that it’s a choice, when I don’t she wakes me up meowing unhappily at the closed bedroom door). It’s sooo funny she thinks she has to be sneaky about it, when I fake sleep on purpose because otherwise she loses patience and doesn't do her adorable midnight sneak.
If she needs to think she’s good at being sneaky, good at sneaky she shall be.
(One of the benefits is that I've pretty much stopped using my phone in bed. Even a cat isn't tricked THAT easily.)
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Okay that is the cutest though. Sneaky little critter 
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Wednesday, February 26th, 2025
60 Days of HIIT, day #16
30 Days of Yoga, day #13
Power pose, day #13
One minute yoga, day #3
Standing abs, day #10
day #184
Accomplishment: Finished “Le calendrier magique.” It’s usually very hard for me to finish an entire story without getting bored or giving up or skipping around, and this one had twenty four episodes, so listening to the entire thing from start to finish without changing back and forth to other stories is a big deal for me.
I thought it would be really hard for me to find healthier and equally tasty replacements for my usual snack foods, especially as I’m gluten free and most gf snacks are ridiculously expensive… but I think I’ve finally got there. Fruit is good, but there are only so many apples I can eat and only so many grapes I can afford. Turns out, roasted fava beans with spices are delicious, and have a ton of iron and protein and fiber. Low sugar yogurt is another good one. Corn chips and salsa.
Back to writing my snippets. I gave it up for a while because I wasn’t feeling myself. But I kinda want to finish at least this storyline.
Writing this up with someone’s tail in my face… okay now she’s sitting on the desk and purring...
60 Days of HIIT, day #16
30 Days of Yoga, day #13
Power pose, day #13
One minute yoga, day #3
Standing abs, day #10
day #184
Accomplishment: Finished “Le calendrier magique.” It’s usually very hard for me to finish an entire story without getting bored or giving up or skipping around, and this one had twenty four episodes, so listening to the entire thing from start to finish without changing back and forth to other stories is a big deal for me.
I thought it would be really hard for me to find healthier and equally tasty replacements for my usual snack foods, especially as I’m gluten free and most gf snacks are ridiculously expensive… but I think I’ve finally got there. Fruit is good, but there are only so many apples I can eat and only so many grapes I can afford. Turns out, roasted fava beans with spices are delicious, and have a ton of iron and protein and fiber. Low sugar yogurt is another good one. Corn chips and salsa.
Back to writing my snippets. I gave it up for a while because I wasn’t feeling myself. But I kinda want to finish at least this storyline.
Writing this up with someone’s tail in my face… okay now she’s sitting on the desk and purring...
It happens so fast. A flash of a second later, I’m against the wall.
The poltergeist’s last words to me echo in my ear. I’m not going to fight unless I have no other choice. Not here, not now.
“You’re not my captive. I’m here to rescue you.”
“Who… who are you?” she whispers.
‘I’m from another world’ might be a bit much right now. I choose a different truth to give her.
“I’m just another captive here,” I explain. “I escaped, destroyed the building, and came back to find a way home. I got lost and that’s how I found you.”
She steps back, letting me go. “There is a way. They were building a portal here. If we can find it - if they finished it - if it didn’t get wrecked in the blast - it might take you home. It could take us both home.”
A rush of excitement runs through me. I don’t need to worry about my lost powers after all. Once I get home safe and sound, someone smarter than I am can help me figure out how to make everything alright again.
The poltergeist’s last words to me echo in my ear. I’m not going to fight unless I have no other choice. Not here, not now.
“You’re not my captive. I’m here to rescue you.”
“Who… who are you?” she whispers.
‘I’m from another world’ might be a bit much right now. I choose a different truth to give her.
“I’m just another captive here,” I explain. “I escaped, destroyed the building, and came back to find a way home. I got lost and that’s how I found you.”
She steps back, letting me go. “There is a way. They were building a portal here. If we can find it - if they finished it - if it didn’t get wrecked in the blast - it might take you home. It could take us both home.”
A rush of excitement runs through me. I don’t need to worry about my lost powers after all. Once I get home safe and sound, someone smarter than I am can help me figure out how to make everything alright again.
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Roasted chickpeas are also good. You gotta peel them first to make them crunchy, but it’s well worth the effort!
I always look for sales on gluten free snacks and look up recipes. Homemade is usually cheaper than store bought. (Usually, but not always)
I always look for sales on gluten free snacks and look up recipes. Homemade is usually cheaper than store bought. (Usually, but not always)
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@FlowersandPetals that requires time and energy though 
I still wanna try Darebeet's fig cookie recipe, but even with all the ingredients successfully collected I just... haven't done it yet...
Thursday, February 27, 2025
30 days of LIIT, day #18
60 days of HIIT, day #17
Power pose, day #14
One minute yoga, day #4
Standing abs, day #11
DD, 20 get ups, day #55
Friday, February 28, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #18
Power pose, day #15
One minute yoga, day #5
Standing abs, day #12
DD, 30 sec elbow plank, day #56
CIRCUIT FITNESS, level #8 (~30 minutes)
Meditation - The Way, Retreat #3
Saturday, March 1, 2025
Power pose, day #16
One minute yoga, day #6
Standing abs, day #13
60 days of HIIT, day #19
DD, 40 jumping jacks, day #57
Sunday, March 2, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #20
30 days of yoga, day #14
*watching Captain America, review potentially to follow*
Monday, March 3, 2025
Wasn't up for a day of any of my programs. I just wasn't. So I picked a workout that seemed within what I felt up to and did that instead: "Strong and Beautiful." Using four pound weights, it took under fifteen minutes (breaks inclusive), leading me to consider adding light, quick Darebee workouts regularly to my workout routine. I do need more upper body workouts, and I want to put my dumbbells to good use.
***
Almost didn’t vote because I didn’t know it was election day on election day, but my family reminded me and I ended up going with them.
On the way back we discussed the suckiness of all the candidates, and I offered to overthrow the Canadian democratic system and instate myself as queen. Cousin: “What would you do?” Me: “I dunno. Eat ice cream?” Cousin: “How would you resolve the housing crisis?” Me: “I’d… build houses” Cousin: “And what would you do about the rising housing costs?” Me: “I’d give the houses away for free”
And you know you’re taking learning a language seriously when you translate “il fait frais” as “he is made of strawberries."
And I love how I keep picking French stories that are about Christian holidays and only realizing halfway through the story - when for like most people the cover illustration of a witch holding a carved pumpkin might have been a dead giveaway. But no I’m clueless “wait this is a Halloween story? Oh right PUMPKINS”
I still wanna try Darebeet's fig cookie recipe, but even with all the ingredients successfully collected I just... haven't done it yet...Thursday, February 27, 2025
30 days of LIIT, day #18
60 days of HIIT, day #17
Power pose, day #14
One minute yoga, day #4
Standing abs, day #11
DD, 20 get ups, day #55
Friday, February 28, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #18
Power pose, day #15
One minute yoga, day #5
Standing abs, day #12
DD, 30 sec elbow plank, day #56
CIRCUIT FITNESS, level #8 (~30 minutes)
Meditation - The Way, Retreat #3
Saturday, March 1, 2025
Power pose, day #16
One minute yoga, day #6
Standing abs, day #13
60 days of HIIT, day #19
DD, 40 jumping jacks, day #57
Sunday, March 2, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #20
30 days of yoga, day #14
*watching Captain America, review potentially to follow*
Monday, March 3, 2025
Wasn't up for a day of any of my programs. I just wasn't. So I picked a workout that seemed within what I felt up to and did that instead: "Strong and Beautiful." Using four pound weights, it took under fifteen minutes (breaks inclusive), leading me to consider adding light, quick Darebee workouts regularly to my workout routine. I do need more upper body workouts, and I want to put my dumbbells to good use.
***
Almost didn’t vote because I didn’t know it was election day on election day, but my family reminded me and I ended up going with them.
On the way back we discussed the suckiness of all the candidates, and I offered to overthrow the Canadian democratic system and instate myself as queen. Cousin: “What would you do?” Me: “I dunno. Eat ice cream?” Cousin: “How would you resolve the housing crisis?” Me: “I’d… build houses” Cousin: “And what would you do about the rising housing costs?” Me: “I’d give the houses away for free”
And you know you’re taking learning a language seriously when you translate “il fait frais” as “he is made of strawberries."
And I love how I keep picking French stories that are about Christian holidays and only realizing halfway through the story - when for like most people the cover illustration of a witch holding a carved pumpkin might have been a dead giveaway. But no I’m clueless “wait this is a Halloween story? Oh right PUMPKINS”
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That was his next question and I conveniently ended the conversation there - as any clever politician would do
though I hear the three little pigs aren't too busy these days...
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Tuesday, March 4th, 2025
30 days of LIIT, day #19
Power pose, day #17
One minute yoga, day #7
Standing abs, day #14
Very different vibe to today's update.
To keep a long story short, one of my ex girlfriends reached out to apologize for how she'd ended things and wanting to reconnect.
To keep a long story short, the way she ended things was... well, I told her the way she was treating me was hurting me (the way she was treating me was not kind), and she went on a rant about how she was tired of dealing with me, needed space, and then disappeared from my life for months.
Needless to say, I spent the day crying and arguing with relatives and friends why I didn't HAVE to go through with the plans we'd spent weeks working on for me to block her and end things permanently. (The ex and I have mutual friends I'd need to quietly and gently explain things to.)
How do you explain to people that love is irrational, and that losing people who hurt you feels like it only hurts more?
If I don't lose my streak by tomorrow morning, can I get extra points?
30 days of LIIT, day #19
Power pose, day #17
One minute yoga, day #7
Standing abs, day #14
Very different vibe to today's update.
To keep a long story short, one of my ex girlfriends reached out to apologize for how she'd ended things and wanting to reconnect.
To keep a long story short, the way she ended things was... well, I told her the way she was treating me was hurting me (the way she was treating me was not kind), and she went on a rant about how she was tired of dealing with me, needed space, and then disappeared from my life for months.
Needless to say, I spent the day crying and arguing with relatives and friends why I didn't HAVE to go through with the plans we'd spent weeks working on for me to block her and end things permanently. (The ex and I have mutual friends I'd need to quietly and gently explain things to.)
How do you explain to people that love is irrational, and that losing people who hurt you feels like it only hurts more?
If I don't lose my streak by tomorrow morning, can I get extra points?
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You absolutely get bonus points for making it through a sucky day 
Also you do not owe her space in your life if her presence makes you feel like crap.
You deserve good things and kindness.
Also you do not owe her space in your life if her presence makes you feel like crap.
You deserve good things and kindness.
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Wednesday, March 5th, 2025
30 days of LIIT, day #20
Wall pushups, day #28
#191
Thursday, March 6th, 2025
Insomnia Yoga
#192
Friday, March 7th, 2025
60 days of walking, day #2
#193
Saturday, March 8th, 2025
30 days of LIIT, day #21
#194
Sunday, March 9th, 2025
30 days of LIIT, day #22
#195
Been a weird week. It's beyond complicated, but in the end, I agreed to at least one conversation with the ex-friend on condition that our mutual friend moderates the conversation. During the conversation we'll decide if we want to keep the friendship or let it go.
I'm lost trying to explain to people why I'd want to resume a relationship when us just talking requires a third party to keep things sane and civil, but the fact that she wants me back badly enough to agree to do this in the way that feels safest to me... the fact that she stepped back and left it up to me whether or not I was willing to do this at all.... I don't know, it means a lot to me. It's evidence, to me, that she's genuinely committed to trying to change and learn and do better, because the girl I last saw two months ago always needed to be in control.
And the fact that we have a mutual friend able and willing to play her part - well, if all the pieces are in place, I'll at least give this a shot.
Yeah, wanting all of your exes as friends forever is just.... famously a part of LGBTQ+ culture, I think. I don't know why that is, but it's true, at least for me.
Oh, I forgot one detail. Remember ping-pong girl? Yeah this is ping-pong girl, pinging back into my life. But this is the first time she's come to me and tried to pull me back into her life again, and a part of me wants to know if she can pull off the role I've been playing in our relationship all these years.
30 days of LIIT, day #20
Wall pushups, day #28
#191
Thursday, March 6th, 2025
Insomnia Yoga
#192
Friday, March 7th, 2025
60 days of walking, day #2
#193
Saturday, March 8th, 2025
30 days of LIIT, day #21
#194
Sunday, March 9th, 2025
30 days of LIIT, day #22
#195
Been a weird week. It's beyond complicated, but in the end, I agreed to at least one conversation with the ex-friend on condition that our mutual friend moderates the conversation. During the conversation we'll decide if we want to keep the friendship or let it go.
I'm lost trying to explain to people why I'd want to resume a relationship when us just talking requires a third party to keep things sane and civil, but the fact that she wants me back badly enough to agree to do this in the way that feels safest to me... the fact that she stepped back and left it up to me whether or not I was willing to do this at all.... I don't know, it means a lot to me. It's evidence, to me, that she's genuinely committed to trying to change and learn and do better, because the girl I last saw two months ago always needed to be in control.
And the fact that we have a mutual friend able and willing to play her part - well, if all the pieces are in place, I'll at least give this a shot.
Yeah, wanting all of your exes as friends forever is just.... famously a part of LGBTQ+ culture, I think. I don't know why that is, but it's true, at least for me.
Oh, I forgot one detail. Remember ping-pong girl? Yeah this is ping-pong girl, pinging back into my life. But this is the first time she's come to me and tried to pull me back into her life again, and a part of me wants to know if she can pull off the role I've been playing in our relationship all these years.
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Monday, March 10, 2025
30 days of LIIT, day #24
Day #196
Tuesday, March 11, 2025
30 days of LIIT, day #23
Day #197
Wednesday, March 12, 2025
30 days of LIIT, day #25
Power pose, day #18
One minute Yoga, day #8
Day #198
I mixed up the days a little, switched around the order of the days because well... easier. Anyway, it worked.
When pingpong girl wanted back in my life, I was chaotic and messy and confused. I didn’t know why she wanted me back after two months of no contact. I genuinely didn't know what the right decision would be because I had no idea what was really going on.
And when I finally agreed to a conversation, it took her about two days to threaten to end our relationship again because of what was ultimately a very minor misunderstanding. I strongly considered ending our conversation and walking away from good.
TW: discussion of suicide
It took me about a week to piece together the story. I had to glean it from bits and pieces that she let slip. But I know what’s happening now and why she reached out. She’s going through a hard time and struggling badly with suicidal thoughts and right now she just feels like she really needs me to be there for her. I’ve been one of her best friends for three years, we've been through heaven and hell together, and she badly needs me now. I don’t know why she needs me, of all people, after how we broke up and hurt each other. I know she’s not capable of being the friend I need her to be right now - but I don’t really need her as a friend. I’ve made my peace that maybe my role in the friendship is just to be there for moral support and that I can and will get my own needs met outside of my relationship with her. Her friendship pulled me through one of my worsts and I owe her at least that much right now.
I lost a cousin to suicide a year ago. His mom called me months before he died, because the treatments for bipolar disorder weren’t working for him and she wanted to know what had worked for me. I spoke to her for at least an hour, gave her everything I’d ever learned about living with BP. Weeks before he died, she called me again, and I didn’t answer because I was at work and I didn’t call back because I figured if it was important she would call me back. When I found out he was gone I cried and cried and wished I’d picked up the phone or at least called her back because I’d never have the chance to try to help him ever again.
I know it’ll be hard after everything we’ve been through and how badly she hurt me these past two months but deep in my heart I know I’m never not answering again.
I’ve gained clarity and calm since I realized that there is only really one right answer that will give me closure should she ever walk out of my life again. I’ll let her know that the next time she walks out it will be the last time, and then I just stay until she decides that she doesn’t need me anymore. I don’t need her in my life forever, I just need her to live.
30 days of LIIT, day #24
Day #196
Tuesday, March 11, 2025
30 days of LIIT, day #23
Day #197
Wednesday, March 12, 2025
30 days of LIIT, day #25
Power pose, day #18
One minute Yoga, day #8
Day #198
I mixed up the days a little, switched around the order of the days because well... easier. Anyway, it worked.
When pingpong girl wanted back in my life, I was chaotic and messy and confused. I didn’t know why she wanted me back after two months of no contact. I genuinely didn't know what the right decision would be because I had no idea what was really going on.
And when I finally agreed to a conversation, it took her about two days to threaten to end our relationship again because of what was ultimately a very minor misunderstanding. I strongly considered ending our conversation and walking away from good.
TW: discussion of suicide
It took me about a week to piece together the story. I had to glean it from bits and pieces that she let slip. But I know what’s happening now and why she reached out. She’s going through a hard time and struggling badly with suicidal thoughts and right now she just feels like she really needs me to be there for her. I’ve been one of her best friends for three years, we've been through heaven and hell together, and she badly needs me now. I don’t know why she needs me, of all people, after how we broke up and hurt each other. I know she’s not capable of being the friend I need her to be right now - but I don’t really need her as a friend. I’ve made my peace that maybe my role in the friendship is just to be there for moral support and that I can and will get my own needs met outside of my relationship with her. Her friendship pulled me through one of my worsts and I owe her at least that much right now.
I lost a cousin to suicide a year ago. His mom called me months before he died, because the treatments for bipolar disorder weren’t working for him and she wanted to know what had worked for me. I spoke to her for at least an hour, gave her everything I’d ever learned about living with BP. Weeks before he died, she called me again, and I didn’t answer because I was at work and I didn’t call back because I figured if it was important she would call me back. When I found out he was gone I cried and cried and wished I’d picked up the phone or at least called her back because I’d never have the chance to try to help him ever again.
I know it’ll be hard after everything we’ve been through and how badly she hurt me these past two months but deep in my heart I know I’m never not answering again.
I’ve gained clarity and calm since I realized that there is only really one right answer that will give me closure should she ever walk out of my life again. I’ll let her know that the next time she walks out it will be the last time, and then I just stay until she decides that she doesn’t need me anymore. I don’t need her in my life forever, I just need her to live.
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Thursday, March 13, 2025
30 days of LIIT, day #26
Power pose, day #19
One minute yoga, day #9
Wall push ups, day #29
30 days of yoga, day #15
Venture: The Blitz (episode #1, 3 km)
Day #199
No dramatic updates, because I requested the chaos-causing conversation be paused for a week while I sort myself out and decide whether or not I want to continue (either of us being able to request a time out was one of the first rules we put on the table). I've been doing a lot better since I finally made up my mind what decision I want to make, and I'm finally back to being able to pick back up a little more fitness and meditation.
30 days of LIIT, day #26
Power pose, day #19
One minute yoga, day #9
Wall push ups, day #29
30 days of yoga, day #15
Venture: The Blitz (episode #1, 3 km)
Day #199
No dramatic updates, because I requested the chaos-causing conversation be paused for a week while I sort myself out and decide whether or not I want to continue (either of us being able to request a time out was one of the first rules we put on the table). I've been doing a lot better since I finally made up my mind what decision I want to make, and I'm finally back to being able to pick back up a little more fitness and meditation.
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Friday, March 14, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #21
30 days of yoga, day #16
DD, 40 side leg raises, day #58
Been putting this day of HIIT off for nearly a week. Didn't think I'd make it through all those high knees. I didn't always go fast but at least I did it.
Day #200
Saturday, March 15, 2025
60 days of walking, day #3
Day #201
Sunday, March 16, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #22
30 days of yoga, day #17
power pose, day #21
one minute yoga, day #11
Day #202
Again, not much update. I've been feeling myself. We'll see how long it lasts, but I really needed this week off from any emotionally charged conversation. Instead, I've been focusing on emotionally recharging myself.
60 days of HIIT, day #21
30 days of yoga, day #16
DD, 40 side leg raises, day #58
Been putting this day of HIIT off for nearly a week. Didn't think I'd make it through all those high knees. I didn't always go fast but at least I did it.
Day #200
Saturday, March 15, 2025
60 days of walking, day #3
Day #201
Sunday, March 16, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #22
30 days of yoga, day #17
power pose, day #21
one minute yoga, day #11
Day #202
Again, not much update. I've been feeling myself. We'll see how long it lasts, but I really needed this week off from any emotionally charged conversation. Instead, I've been focusing on emotionally recharging myself.
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Monday, March 17, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #23
30 days of LIIT, day #27
One minute yoga, day #12
Power pose, day #22
Standing abs, day #157
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #4
Day #203
Tuesday, March 18, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #24
30 days of LIIT, day #28
Power pose, day #23
One minute yoga, day #13
Standing abs, day #16
DD, 30 w extensions, day #59
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #4
Day #204
Gonna be honest, at this point I'm holding onto my fitness streak by the skin of my teeth through sheer force of habit. Even badges just two days ahead feel like they're miles and miles away.
60 days of HIIT, day #23
30 days of LIIT, day #27
One minute yoga, day #12
Power pose, day #22
Standing abs, day #157
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #4
Day #203
Tuesday, March 18, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #24
30 days of LIIT, day #28
Power pose, day #23
One minute yoga, day #13
Standing abs, day #16
DD, 30 w extensions, day #59
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #4
Day #204
Gonna be honest, at this point I'm holding onto my fitness streak by the skin of my teeth through sheer force of habit. Even badges just two days ahead feel like they're miles and miles away.
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Wednesday, March 19, 2025
Walking to running, day #6 (6 km)
Mady Morrison, 15 minute stretch
Power pose, day #24
One minute yoga, day #14
Standing abs, day #17
DD, 30 squat hold calf raises, day #60
30 days of yoga, day #18
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #4
Day #205
Five day streak of meditation.
I’m gonna do a weird crowdsourcing experiment. I’m thinking of doing either Ten or Unbound as my next add-on program once I’m done with 30 Days of LIIT.
A heart reaction will be a vote for “Ten.” A laughing reaction will be a vote for “Unbound.” If the votes are even… um, don’t leave the votes even? I’ll count the votes when I finish LIIT, which might be a few days yet.
Walking to running, day #6 (6 km)
Mady Morrison, 15 minute stretch
Power pose, day #24
One minute yoga, day #14
Standing abs, day #17
DD, 30 squat hold calf raises, day #60
30 days of yoga, day #18
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #4
Day #205
Five day streak of meditation.
I’m gonna do a weird crowdsourcing experiment. I’m thinking of doing either Ten or Unbound as my next add-on program once I’m done with 30 Days of LIIT.
A heart reaction will be a vote for “Ten.” A laughing reaction will be a vote for “Unbound.” If the votes are even… um, don’t leave the votes even? I’ll count the votes when I finish LIIT, which might be a few days yet.
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Thursday, March 20, 2025
I wasn't up to much, so I picked a light workout, then when I was done I realized the LIIT workout was pretty similar, so I did that one too.
Winter blues (workout)
30 days of LIIT, day #29
30 days of yoga, day #19
Power pose, day #25
One minute yoga, day #15
Iron arms, day #5
Caught: Nickit, Dreepy
Found: Ice stone, protector
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #4
Day #206
Friday, March 21, 2025
Walking to running, day #7
Mady Morrison, 15 minutes
Power pose, day #26
One minute yoga, #16
Iron arms, day #6
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #4
Day #207
Looks like the votes are in, and Ten is the winner. I'll give it a few more days for any last minute votes, I won't get around to the last day of LIIT awhile yet anyway.
Oh! I did TEN Darebee workouts total! I'm keeping very careful alphabetical track in a google doc.
I wasn't up to much, so I picked a light workout, then when I was done I realized the LIIT workout was pretty similar, so I did that one too.
Winter blues (workout)
30 days of LIIT, day #29
30 days of yoga, day #19
Power pose, day #25
One minute yoga, day #15
Iron arms, day #5
Caught: Nickit, Dreepy
Found: Ice stone, protector
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #4
Day #206
Friday, March 21, 2025
Walking to running, day #7
Mady Morrison, 15 minutes
Power pose, day #26
One minute yoga, #16
Iron arms, day #6
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #4
Day #207
Looks like the votes are in, and Ten is the winner. I'll give it a few more days for any last minute votes, I won't get around to the last day of LIIT awhile yet anyway.
Oh! I did TEN Darebee workouts total! I'm keeping very careful alphabetical track in a google doc.
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Saturday, March 22, 2025
60 days of walking, day #4
60 days of HIIT, day #25
Power pose, day #27
One minute yoga, day #17
Iron arms, day #7
Knuckles (workout for the light side = 150 points)
Found: whipped dream, ribbon sweet, upgrade
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #4
Because I am bored, I am sharing my review of Captain America - well, no, not him, but rather a review of Marvel's newly imported character, Ruth "Botseroff" Bat-Seraph. Cuz why not.
(spoilers ahead)
She has the scintillating personality of a bowl of soggy, cold, bland porridge.
She has a thrilling, unpredictable character arc of a flatlining echocardiogram (she switches to the same side she was already on because ‘you’re right’?).
A detailed, thoughtful backstory that can be summed up in one sentence and then never explained or referenced again.
A talented, nuanced actress whose wages were deducted any time she emoted or smiled.
A kickass warrior who kicks the ass of the pronunciation of her own name, and… yeah that’s pretty much all the ass she kicks
I literally do not even know why they tried - I mean, why they went as far out of their way to not try at all. Seriously, the funko pop doesn't even have the right hair color...
60 days of walking, day #4
60 days of HIIT, day #25
Power pose, day #27
One minute yoga, day #17
Iron arms, day #7
Knuckles (workout for the light side = 150 points)
Found: whipped dream, ribbon sweet, upgrade
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #4
Because I am bored, I am sharing my review of Captain America - well, no, not him, but rather a review of Marvel's newly imported character, Ruth "Botseroff" Bat-Seraph. Cuz why not.
(spoilers ahead)
She has the scintillating personality of a bowl of soggy, cold, bland porridge.
She has a thrilling, unpredictable character arc of a flatlining echocardiogram (she switches to the same side she was already on because ‘you’re right’?).
A detailed, thoughtful backstory that can be summed up in one sentence and then never explained or referenced again.
A talented, nuanced actress whose wages were deducted any time she emoted or smiled.
A kickass warrior who kicks the ass of the pronunciation of her own name, and… yeah that’s pretty much all the ass she kicks
I literally do not even know why they tried - I mean, why they went as far out of their way to not try at all. Seriously, the funko pop doesn't even have the right hair color...
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Sunday, March 23, 2025
RingFit Adventure, level #7 - 9
60 days of HIIT, day #26
DD, 20 squat hops, day #61
Week 1 Workout 1 - Knee pushup challenge
500 kicks workout (trust me this one nearly did me in, but I made it through all FIVE HUNDRED kicks)
Caught: Stufful, Machop
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #4
I was supposed to be volunteering for the event, but by the time I figured out what I was supposed to be doing the event was over. I'll keep my eye on the game and try to volunteer EARLIER next time so I'm all sorted by the time the event starts. Sorry, bees
OH ALSO WE WON
RingFit Adventure, level #7 - 9
60 days of HIIT, day #26
DD, 20 squat hops, day #61
Week 1 Workout 1 - Knee pushup challenge
500 kicks workout (trust me this one nearly did me in, but I made it through all FIVE HUNDRED kicks)
Caught: Stufful, Machop
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #4
I was supposed to be volunteering for the event, but by the time I figured out what I was supposed to be doing the event was over. I'll keep my eye on the game and try to volunteer EARLIER next time so I'm all sorted by the time the event starts. Sorry, bees
OH ALSO WE WON
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The match was rigged!
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Yes it was... by wonder woman herself joining the forces of light to vanquish darkness
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Monday, March 24, 2025
Walking to running, day #8
60 days of HIIT, day #27
Power pose, day #28
One minute yoga, day #18
Iron arms, day #8
Caught: Blipbug, Eevee
Found: Ribbon sweet
Tuesday, March 25, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #28
Power pose, day #29
One minute yoga, day #19
Iron arms, day #9
30 days of yoga, day #20
Caught: Totodile, Spinarak
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #5
I accidentally got my ears pierced for free yesterday. I work across the hallway from an ear piercing place, and one of the staff there walked into my store and asked if I'd be willing to model for an ear piercing, and that it would be completely free. I asked my coworker if I could have ten minutes and happily went to get a free piercing. Turns out, I was training fodder for an ear piercing gun. I KNOW EAR PIERCING GUNS ARE NOT AS SAFE. It was a once in a lifetime adventure though, and I couldn't turn it down - and they look really good. It was just a second lobe piercing on each ear, I'm sure it'll heal fine. I'm an ear piercing addict. Soooo many more piercings I want to get, and now I can check "randomly get a free ear piercing" off my piercing bucket list.
Walking to running, day #8
60 days of HIIT, day #27
Power pose, day #28
One minute yoga, day #18
Iron arms, day #8
Caught: Blipbug, Eevee
Found: Ribbon sweet
Tuesday, March 25, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #28
Power pose, day #29
One minute yoga, day #19
Iron arms, day #9
30 days of yoga, day #20
Caught: Totodile, Spinarak
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #5
I accidentally got my ears pierced for free yesterday. I work across the hallway from an ear piercing place, and one of the staff there walked into my store and asked if I'd be willing to model for an ear piercing, and that it would be completely free. I asked my coworker if I could have ten minutes and happily went to get a free piercing. Turns out, I was training fodder for an ear piercing gun. I KNOW EAR PIERCING GUNS ARE NOT AS SAFE. It was a once in a lifetime adventure though, and I couldn't turn it down - and they look really good. It was just a second lobe piercing on each ear, I'm sure it'll heal fine. I'm an ear piercing addict. Soooo many more piercings I want to get, and now I can check "randomly get a free ear piercing" off my piercing bucket list.
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Wednesday, March 26, 2025
Power pose, day #30 [BADGE DAY]
30 days of yoga, day #21
One minute yoga, day #20
Iron arms, day #10
30 days of LIIT, day #30 [BADGE DAY]
Mady Morrison, 10 min cooldown
Caught: Poliwag, Grimer
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #5; Neo, Sahara desert
Day #212
And I'm finally caught up on all active Darebee logs. First time in my life. I read through a lot of them going to and from an appointment, but it still counts...
Power pose, day #30 [BADGE DAY]
30 days of yoga, day #21
One minute yoga, day #20
Iron arms, day #10
30 days of LIIT, day #30 [BADGE DAY]
Mady Morrison, 10 min cooldown
Caught: Poliwag, Grimer
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #5; Neo, Sahara desert
Day #212
And I'm finally caught up on all active Darebee logs. First time in my life. I read through a lot of them going to and from an appointment, but it still counts...
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Happy Double Badge Day!!
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Double Badge Day! 
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Congrats on the badges!
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"In order to succeed, we must first believe that we can. (Nikos Kazantzakis)"
Belated congratulations !
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@Mamatigerj @Fremen @Maegaranthelas @TopNotch @NightTigress thank you all!!! 
Thursday, March 27, 2025
DD, 10 hop heel clicks, day #62
60 days of HIIT, day #29
One minute yoga, day #21
Iron arms, day #11
Calves of Steel, day #1
30 days of yoga, day #22
Mady Morrison, 10 minute cooldown
Caught: Sandygast, Jangmo-o
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #5
Day #213
Friday, March 28, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #30
30 days of yoga, day #23
One minute yoga, day #22
Iron arms, day #12
Calves of steel, day #2
Caught: Shinx, Minior
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #5
Day #214
Me at level two: "I can't wait til I can do level three workouts! It'll be so challenging and awesome and I'll get so strong!"
Me at level three: "Can I go back to level two and stay there forever? High knees are my sworn enemy and level three has soooooooooo many"
Thursday, March 27, 2025
DD, 10 hop heel clicks, day #62
60 days of HIIT, day #29
One minute yoga, day #21
Iron arms, day #11
Calves of Steel, day #1
30 days of yoga, day #22
Mady Morrison, 10 minute cooldown
Caught: Sandygast, Jangmo-o
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #5
Day #213
Friday, March 28, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #30
30 days of yoga, day #23
One minute yoga, day #22
Iron arms, day #12
Calves of steel, day #2
Caught: Shinx, Minior
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #5
Day #214
Me at level two: "I can't wait til I can do level three workouts! It'll be so challenging and awesome and I'll get so strong!"
Me at level three: "Can I go back to level two and stay there forever? High knees are my sworn enemy and level three has soooooooooo many"
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This is very relatableMe at level two: "I can't wait til I can do level three workouts! It'll be so challenging and awesome and I'll get so strong!"
Me at level three: "Can I go back to level two and stay there forever? High knees are my sworn enemy and level three has soooooooooo many"
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@Louve Rose @CODawn thank you!!!
Saturday, March 29, 2025
Recovery day #10
30 days of cardio light, day #1
Day #215
Sunday, March 30, 2025
30 days of yoga, day #24
recovery, day #11
TLC (Workout of the Day)
Caught: Caterpie & Tentacool
Meditation: Neo, Sahara desert
Day #216
Down bad with a cold again. Just did the bare minimum to maintain my streak. I don't know why I've gotten sick twice in the last month.
The votes are in, and "Ten" is the next add-on program I'll be doing. I'm just going to finish up 30 days of Yoga first so I don't have too many programs on the go at once.
Saturday, March 29, 2025
Recovery day #10
30 days of cardio light, day #1
Day #215
Sunday, March 30, 2025
30 days of yoga, day #24
recovery, day #11
TLC (Workout of the Day)
Caught: Caterpie & Tentacool
Meditation: Neo, Sahara desert
Day #216
Down bad with a cold again. Just did the bare minimum to maintain my streak. I don't know why I've gotten sick twice in the last month.
The votes are in, and "Ten" is the next add-on program I'll be doing. I'm just going to finish up 30 days of Yoga first so I don't have too many programs on the go at once.
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"Courage is rightly esteemed the first of human qualities... because it is the quality which guarantees all others."
Happy belated double badge day!!!
Feel better soon!!
Feel better soon!!
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Monday, March 31st, 2025
30 days of yoga, day #25
Tuesday, April 1st, 2025
Recovery, day #12
Day #217 & 218
Thanks for the well wishes
30 days of yoga, day #25
Tuesday, April 1st, 2025
Recovery, day #12
Day #217 & 218
Thanks for the well wishes
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Wednesday, April 2nd, 2025
Recovery, day #13
2 minute abs
2 minute arms
Thursday, April 3rd, 2025
Recovery, day #14
Calm down
Friday, April 4th, 2025
Recovery, day #15 [BADGE DAY]
2 minute yoga
Caught: Magby
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #5
Saturday, April 5th, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #31
30 days of yoga, day #26
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #5
FINALLY BETTER OMG - still a few cold symptoms but I'm almost back at full strength!!!
Day #219 - 222
Recovery, day #13
2 minute abs
2 minute arms
Thursday, April 3rd, 2025
Recovery, day #14
Calm down
Friday, April 4th, 2025
Recovery, day #15 [BADGE DAY]
2 minute yoga
Caught: Magby
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #5
Saturday, April 5th, 2025
60 days of HIIT, day #31
30 days of yoga, day #26
Meditation: The Way, Retreat #5
FINALLY BETTER OMG - still a few cold symptoms but I'm almost back at full strength!!!
Day #219 - 222
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"Courage is rightly esteemed the first of human qualities... because it is the quality which guarantees all others."
Happy badge day!!
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yay Recovery!
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"In order to succeed, we must first believe that we can. (Nikos Kazantzakis)"
Congratulations !
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Congrats!!