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Matan
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"A sunset does not last forever, but it sure can be pretty. - Maegaranthelas"
Matan
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"A sunset does not last forever, but it sure can be pretty. - Maegaranthelas"
About joining a forum. Even though I might know more about aviation than the "average Joe" does, I'm way too scared to interact with anyone (probably an impostor syndrome).
In the past I thought about starting an aviation related chatroom here in The Hive (just because this community is so amazing)...
I've been to some airshows, and in aviation museum in the past. Unfortunately nowadays it's impossible (for various reasons).
In the past I thought about starting an aviation related chatroom here in The Hive (just because this community is so amazing)...
I've been to some airshows, and in aviation museum in the past. Unfortunately nowadays it's impossible (for various reasons).
Matan
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There's a lot negativity in my thread recently. Sorry about that.
I'm still alive (unfortunately). I still feel absolutely awful. I thought it'll get better somehow, that the pain will disappear. I was so wrong...
I'm a burden... I'm useless...
I'm still alive (unfortunately). I still feel absolutely awful. I thought it'll get better somehow, that the pain will disappear. I was so wrong...
I'm a burden... I'm useless...
Matan
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I'm sorry for such a stupid request, but I really need someone to talk to on a daily basis. I don't feel comfortable talking publicly.
If you have time and energy please send me a private message, and if not that's absolutely fine.
If you have time and energy please send me a private message, and if not that's absolutely fine.
Hello, don't be sorry, maybe you should also ask this in the safe space place here
www.community.darebee.com
I have too many problems and not enough time to be able to help you this way, but please continue to post here and give us news. Are you able to workout actually?
Safe Space
This is a safe space. Here we talk about mental health, general well-being, loneliness and depression - and ways to get through it all. We all need help sometimes. Sometimes we need support and sometimes we just need for someone to listen and just be there.
www.community.darebee.com
I have too many problems and not enough time to be able to help you this way, but please continue to post here and give us news. Are you able to workout actually?
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I ask here on my thread, because it's my own safe space. It just don't feel like putting myself "out there".
I know. You told me about your son.
I'll try to post. Yea, I kinda exercise. I do Seated Boxer everyday.
I know. You told me about your son.
I'll try to post. Yea, I kinda exercise. I do Seated Boxer everyday.
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Like my own little speck of space in the vastness of the internet. 
I want to start a program in September, but it all depends how I'll feel physically, so far it's not good.
I want to start a program in September, but it all depends how I'll feel physically, so far it's not good.
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"“Keep an eye on the staircases. They like to change.” Percy Weasley, Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone."
Maybe you could vent a bit on your thread when you feel like it.
My problem is my poor command of the English language, I read and understand but to write (also out of laziness) I use Google Translate
My problem is my poor command of the English language, I read and understand but to write (also out of laziness) I use Google Translate
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Hi. Hope you are well.
I was supposed to do a "proper" workout today, start a program.
Nope! I have no energy and absolutely zero motivation.
Everything still sucks... I wonder why I should even try...
I was supposed to do a "proper" workout today, start a program.
Nope! I have no energy and absolutely zero motivation.
Everything still sucks... I wonder why I should even try...
It is not the most important not having start yesterday, are you better today ?
I think one of the reason you should try is this :
darebee.com
take care please, you can do this
I think one of the reason you should try is this :
How To Best Use Exercise To Relieve Anxiety and Depression
A cocktail of exercise and small lifestyle changes can help you fight both anxiety and depression.
darebee.com
take care please, you can do this
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Thanks @graoumia! I know that exercising would most likely make me feel better. The problem is that I just don't have any energy to force myself to do it.
I just realized that I've wasted almost half of my life. I'm in the same place as 15 years ago. Yea, I could probably do something about it, but why should I even try, I'd fail anyway.
My life is a failure. I am a failure.
I just realized that I've wasted almost half of my life. I'm in the same place as 15 years ago. Yea, I could probably do something about it, but why should I even try, I'd fail anyway.
My life is a failure. I am a failure.
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"A sunset does not last forever, but it sure can be pretty. - Maegaranthelas"
I guess I can now tell you what happened.
Exactly two months ago I lost contact with someone very dear and important to me.
I'm still devastated. I thought I finally found joy in my life. I thought I finally can be loved, that I can be happy, that I don't have to be lonely.
I feel like I lost a part of myself. I lost all the motivation to fight. I literally have no more reasons to keep going.
Exactly two months ago I lost contact with someone very dear and important to me.
I'm still devastated. I thought I finally found joy in my life. I thought I finally can be loved, that I can be happy, that I don't have to be lonely.
I feel like I lost a part of myself. I lost all the motivation to fight. I literally have no more reasons to keep going.
so sorry to hear that. I don't know what is behind "i lost contact" and i understand you can't say more about it, that's ok if better for you not explaining. I think it is a "normal" process (don't take my words too litterally i am not english speaking so not as precise at i would like) A loss like this one is difficult, but you WILL find back some energy to fight, and you WILL find joy again.
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Workout buddy
Hi! I was wondering if anyone would be interested in exercising together. I really need to start working out again, but I’m struggling with motivation. I thought it could be fun to have someone to motivate each other along the way. I’m planning to start slow with Foundation program. Let me...
www.community.darebee.com
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Well, that was a failure.Workout buddy
Hi! I was wondering if anyone would be interested in exercising together. I really need to start working out again, but I’m struggling with motivation. I thought it could be fun to have someone to motivate each other along the way. I’m planning to start slow with Foundation program. Let me...
Matan
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I guess I'm on my own... 
Done today:
Foundation Day 1: Cardio (III, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 1
Good night/day bees!
Done today:
Foundation Day 1: Cardio (III, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 1
Good night/day bees!
JohnStrong
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Good on you for putting yourself out there, and congratulations on startingI guess I'm on my own...
Done today:
Foundation Day 1: Cardio (III, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 1
Good night/day bees!
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"I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time, but Im too young to worry..."
With some of us, like me, it's not that we don't want to. I'm time pressed.
I'm up at 4am and I'm rushed for every minute til I leave, through work, through cooking after work, through the internet. I don't get to relax during the week.
I barely have time to come here. I'm running late tonight in particular, but keeping up on everyone and the positivity of the site is one of my favorite parts of the day.
Really hope you keep at it!
For me during a time a year or two ago when I had no control over anything going on around me, it was nice that the one thing I could control was me. That helped me make great progress.
I had to let go of all the negativity, all the self doubt and depending upon validation from other people. I never thought I could, I spent almost my entire life in that mind set.
But once I did finally have enough and I was determined, I made better habits. I would tell myself to shut up when I would catch myself slipping back. And really after awhile it became liberating.
I want all of the best for you and I hope this is your first step back towards that track. Don't knock it, it may very well just happen if you focus on this for now and not all of the things you can't control. You just might stumble upon something better along the way.
I'm up at 4am and I'm rushed for every minute til I leave, through work, through cooking after work, through the internet. I don't get to relax during the week.
I barely have time to come here. I'm running late tonight in particular, but keeping up on everyone and the positivity of the site is one of my favorite parts of the day.
Really hope you keep at it!
For me during a time a year or two ago when I had no control over anything going on around me, it was nice that the one thing I could control was me. That helped me make great progress.
I had to let go of all the negativity, all the self doubt and depending upon validation from other people. I never thought I could, I spent almost my entire life in that mind set.
But once I did finally have enough and I was determined, I made better habits. I would tell myself to shut up when I would catch myself slipping back. And really after awhile it became liberating.
I want all of the best for you and I hope this is your first step back towards that track. Don't knock it, it may very well just happen if you focus on this for now and not all of the things you can't control. You just might stumble upon something better along the way.
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@JohnStrong Thank you.
@HellYeah Ha ha. I can't argue with that.
@MadamMeow I totally understand. I'm not sure though if I can change my life. I don't think I have the strength.
How you did that? How did you got rid of self doubt? Teach me.
@graoumia Thank you so much. It means a lot.
@HellYeah Ha ha. I can't argue with that.
@MadamMeow I totally understand. I'm not sure though if I can change my life. I don't think I have the strength.
How you did that? How did you got rid of self doubt? Teach me.
@graoumia Thank you so much. It means a lot.
Matan
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Done today:
Foundation Day 2: Strength (II, 60")
That was surprisingly difficult. I'm in even worse shape than I thought.
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 2
Good night/day bees!
Foundation Day 2: Strength (II, 60")
That was surprisingly difficult. I'm in even worse shape than I thought.
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 2
Good night/day bees!
Matan
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Done today:
Foundation Day 3: Cardio (III, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 3
Good night/day bees!
Foundation Day 3: Cardio (III, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 3
Good night/day bees!
Laura Rainbow Dragon
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Congratulations on getting started with Foundation and the 1000 Calf Raises Challenge @Matan !
You are not alone.
Look at all the people coming here to support you in your thread.
Look at all the people posting their progress, their challenges and successes in their own threads.
Though we are spread far apart in the physical world, we are all in this together in the Hive.
You are not useless. And you are not a failure.
You got started back with doing a workout Program and a Challenge on top of that too!
It was hard. But you did it. That is a success!
@MadamMeow 's words are wise. There is much in the world around us that we cannot control. But we can control ourselves and how we respond to that world.
We all make change the same way: one step at a time.
Please celebrate your successes. Do not discount them. (Even if you think they are small.) Acknowledging our small successes helps us to build the belief that we can achieve even greater successes, and that belief gives us the courage to try for them. Stay strong! The Wright brothers didn't perfect their airplane in a day!
You are not alone.
Look at all the people coming here to support you in your thread.
Look at all the people posting their progress, their challenges and successes in their own threads.
Though we are spread far apart in the physical world, we are all in this together in the Hive.
You are not useless. And you are not a failure.
You got started back with doing a workout Program and a Challenge on top of that too!
It was hard. But you did it. That is a success!
@MadamMeow 's words are wise. There is much in the world around us that we cannot control. But we can control ourselves and how we respond to that world.
We all make change the same way: one step at a time.
Please celebrate your successes. Do not discount them. (Even if you think they are small.) Acknowledging our small successes helps us to build the belief that we can achieve even greater successes, and that belief gives us the courage to try for them. Stay strong! The Wright brothers didn't perfect their airplane in a day!
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Thank you @Laura Rainbow Dragon. I really appreciate your support.
I just don't know what I'm supposed to do... I'm still very lost. I sometimes feel like I'm not even in control of myself.
I hope that getting back into fitness will help me regain some control.
Done Friday:
Foundation Day 4: Tendons (III, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 4
Done yesterday:
Foundation Day 5: Cardio (III, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 5
Done today:
Foundation Day 6: Abs (I, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 6
Good night/day bees!
I just don't know what I'm supposed to do... I'm still very lost. I sometimes feel like I'm not even in control of myself.
I hope that getting back into fitness will help me regain some control.
Done Friday:
Foundation Day 4: Tendons (III, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 4
Done yesterday:
Foundation Day 5: Cardio (III, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 5
Done today:
Foundation Day 6: Abs (I, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 6
Good night/day bees!
Matan
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"A sunset does not last forever, but it sure can be pretty. - Maegaranthelas"
Done yesterday:
Foundation Day 7: Strength (II, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 7
Done today:
Foundation Day 8: Tendons (I, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 8
Good night/day bees!
Foundation Day 7: Strength (II, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 7
Done today:
Foundation Day 8: Tendons (I, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 8
Good night/day bees!
Matan
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"A sunset does not last forever, but it sure can be pretty. - Maegaranthelas"
It's not a good day...
I feel awful and lonely, and sad...
Just terrible...
At least fitness-wise I'm on the right track (I hope).
Done today:
Foundation Day 9: Cardio (III, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 9
Good night/day bees!
I feel awful and lonely, and sad...
Just terrible...
At least fitness-wise I'm on the right track (I hope).
Done today:
Foundation Day 9: Cardio (III, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 9
Good night/day bees!
I'm so sorry to read that, but i am still very proud of what you are accomplishing for your health. I don't know where you live, i hope you are safe, there are such terrible climate conditions at some places. And it doesn't help feeling good, i think. Tomorrow is day 10, could you do something special to celebrate this ? Take care, keep on your good work
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Thank you @graoumia. I'm safe, weather and geopolitical situation wise.
I haven't done anything special for day 10. I'll be celebrating when/if I finish the program.
Done yesterday:
Foundation Day 10: Strength (II, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 10
Good night/day bees!
I haven't done anything special for day 10. I'll be celebrating when/if I finish the program.
Done yesterday:
Foundation Day 10: Strength (II, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 10
Good night/day bees!
Matan
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"A sunset does not last forever, but it sure can be pretty. - Maegaranthelas"
I feel absolutely terrible mentally. I question everything. Why did I even started exercising again?
To live longer, to look better? I don't even care about those things...
Done today:
Foundation Day 11: Cardio (I, 60")
I had to force myself to do this...
Good night/day bees!
To live longer, to look better? I don't even care about those things...
Done today:
Foundation Day 11: Cardio (I, 60")
I had to force myself to do this...
Good night/day bees!
Matan
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"A sunset does not last forever, but it sure can be pretty. - Maegaranthelas"
There are moments when I feel, well, acceptable, but most of the time I feel just horrible...
Done yesterday:
Foundation Day 12: Tendons (I, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 11
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 12
Done today:
Foundation Day 13: Abs (I, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 13
Good night/day bees!
Done yesterday:
Foundation Day 12: Tendons (I, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 11
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 12
Done today:
Foundation Day 13: Abs (I, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 13
Good night/day bees!
Matan
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"A sunset does not last forever, but it sure can be pretty. - Maegaranthelas"
Done today:
Foundation Day 14: Cardio (II, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 14
Good night/day bees!
Foundation Day 14: Cardio (II, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 14
Good night/day bees!
Matan
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"A sunset does not last forever, but it sure can be pretty. - Maegaranthelas"
Done today:
Foundation Day 15: Strength (I, 60")
I have really hard time to force myself to do anything more than level I.
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 15
Good night/day bees!
Foundation Day 15: Strength (I, 60")
I have really hard time to force myself to do anything more than level I.
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 15
Good night/day bees!
WolfDreamer
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I've felt this way before on some of the program workouts. Hang in there.
JohnStrong
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Maybe that's a sign from your mind/body you could try following.
Any time I force myself to do things I just feed self-resentment that ultimately eclipses any relief or satisfaction from what I accomplished.
Matan
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I guess I don't have goals in life anymore, personal nor fitness.
I just exist...
Done yesterday:
Foundation Day 16: Tendons (I, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 16
Done today:
Foundation Day 17: Cardio (I, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 17
Good night/day bees!
I just exist...
Done yesterday:
Foundation Day 16: Tendons (I, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 16
Done today:
Foundation Day 17: Cardio (I, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 17
Good night/day bees!
Matan
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"A sunset does not last forever, but it sure can be pretty. - Maegaranthelas"
Done today:
Foundation Day 18: Strength (II, 60")
Level II! Yay!
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 18
Good night/day bees!
Foundation Day 18: Strength (II, 60")
Level II! Yay!
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 18
Good night/day bees!
Matan
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"A sunset does not last forever, but it sure can be pretty. - Maegaranthelas"
Done today:
Foundation Day 19: Cardio (I, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 19
Good night/day bees!
Foundation Day 19: Cardio (I, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 19
Good night/day bees!
Matan
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"A sunset does not last forever, but it sure can be pretty. - Maegaranthelas"
Done today:
Foundation Day 20: Tendons (III, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 20
Good night/day bees!
Foundation Day 20: Tendons (III, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 20
Good night/day bees!
Matan
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"A sunset does not last forever, but it sure can be pretty. - Maegaranthelas"
Done today:
Foundation Day 21: Cardio (III, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 21
Good night/day bees!
Foundation Day 21: Cardio (III, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 21
Good night/day bees!
Matan
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"A sunset does not last forever, but it sure can be pretty. - Maegaranthelas"
What a terrible day...
Done today:
Foundation Day 22: Abs (I, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 22
Good night/day bees!
Done today:
Foundation Day 22: Abs (I, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 22
Good night/day bees!
Matan
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"A sunset does not last forever, but it sure can be pretty. - Maegaranthelas"
Done today:
Foundation Day 23: Strength (II, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 23
Good night/day bees!
Foundation Day 23: Strength (II, 60")
1000 Calf Raises Challenge Day 23
Good night/day bees!