My summary for December
: too much work, too many cookies
I am doing really well overall actually. I struggled with my ED quite a bit in the beginning of the month but I am in a really, really good place right now. You have to count all the good days, especially
the good days. Surprisingly, I am actually looking forward to 2023 despite the fact that it's very clear it's going to be a hard year in every respect. I am ready for it, though, I have a hammer and everything is
I got dis.
My training in general is about the same. I am consistently training twice a day: cardio in the morning and strength training in the evening ~ 12hrs apart. I train before breakfast after a strong espresso and walking my dogs. I picked up a couple of new habits I am currently integrating into my life. I am now using a massage gun for 15 minutes every morning after I wake up (full body massage). After two weeks it made a huge difference. No more pain. Of any kind. OMG, yes.
Another thing I am now adding to my morning training is hanging on the bars. I only do it for 1 minute but I make sure I completely relax my body and feel all of the tendons stretching. Another big YES.
My daily ab-work is going well. I am not 100% consistent right now since my cardio is more erratic than I would like atthemo. My gift for Christmas this year was a semi-permanent eye-liner makeup. It's a tattoo. On your face. On your eyes. I have always found it really difficult to girl so I do everything in my power to do as little of it as possible while still being able to look in the mirror without shuddering. Aaaand the verdict is... I LOVE IT. I don't know what it'll look like in a month yet but so far it's the greatest thing since sliced bread. The only issue right now is that I can't sweat until everything heals so I swapped my running for walking. Once it all sets, though, I won't have to worry about looking like a wraith all of the time because I can't be bothered with makeup.
I am still eating two main meals a day. The only thing I am cutting back on right now is bread and sweets to rehab from the holidays. So my breakfasts are more: protein + salads + smoothies - and my dinners are vegetable casseroles with vegan cheese or cauliflower steaks in batter. It's already making a massive difference in how I look and feel and it's only been a week so I am excited. I also added a small mandatory 2PM snack to my day to prevent binge eating or any food related anxiety throughout the day. It's working so far. I make a small bowl of dried fruit (apricots, dates, figs or dried bananas) and nuts (walnuts, cashews, almonds, hazelnuts, coconut). I also sometimes add candied ginger, 99% black chocolate or licorice to spice things up.
I watch trash TV shows on Netflix and listen to a ton of questionable quality audiobooks before bed to relax. My life is boring but I love it and I wouldn't change a thing. I'll try to update my log here whenever I can because I love reading everyone else's updates and although I don't have anything exciting to share, journaling and sharing how I am doing and feeling is definitely cathartic.
Thank you for being here and for reading!