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The Wanderer

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Sorry for my English

Oveall situation:

M, 28, light autism. Leave hometown in spain 5 months ago in my car thinking of start a new life in Europe, for some reasons stuck in Catalonia in the house of a dude I hitchikked years ago. I started online university in the middle and kind of stressed (main reason i chosed to stay in the known instead of continue nord). I just dont want to be here im not making any money or making true connnections with anyone, 5 months in this mood and also the price of diesel is getting funny. According to a test that I studied in university I probably have severe depression and stress. 4 year kind of relationship ended in november by her via whatsapp the day before aniversary. Family situation is also kind of shitty, I decided to leave because after years of burning myself I can not redirectibg the path that a member of my family is following. Lost most part of the hope and confidence I had on people (but not all, few exceptions). The good part, 5 months with 0 alcohol, cigarettes or drugs, I even defeat screens, no videos for 5 months until the other day and was more sporadic. But I just feel alone, dishoriented, disconected. I want to start a new life somewhere, Ive wandered a lot in the past and always comming back to a place that just doesnt fill me. Hardcore late 20s crysis. Exercice make me feel fighting, thank you so much to Darebee, Built to last have remade my concept of fitness and I need it. I promise I will donate something to this great website as soon as I get a stable job. For now I was doing the total body strength program, stopped bcs was bussy and needed that energy and now im low energy bcs I just doing push up challenge and strecthing to maintain the habit. I will update someday. Thats the first time i post something like that i dont even have social media

If someone is reading me:

Thank you

Don't ever give up
 
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NightWolf714

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"The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, then I can change. ~Carl Rogers"
It sounds like things are rough, but you are taking steps to turn things around. Congratulations on 5 months with no alcohol, cigarettes, or drugs. That's huge! Best of luck continuing that progress.
 

Hi its me

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You are so impressive! I promise things will get better. I’ve faced hardships as well, and I know you too can get through yours. If your looking for a friend I mean, look at these people supporting you! I hope you feel better soon!
 
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