The tra1n1ng journal cont1nues

[f1shie]

1,726 - PT stuff!

1,176 - Some meditation!

Soooo they can't fill in my tooth for... like almost three more weeks and I think the day they can do it is the day of fluff boy's next MRI to check his tumors.

Mind if I just, scream a while? I need to scream a while. And hug someone. And get like, thousands of dollars. Mhm.

Love y'all <3

 

[f1shie]

1,727 - PT stuff and some squats!

1,177 - Some meditation!

Goodnight everyone! Fluff boy and I love you. Now, we must sleep.

And stay hydrated.

 

[f1shie]

1,728 - Calf raises and band-it!

1,178 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Gonna go to a small con tomorrow. Hopefully the weather'll be nice for fluff boy to go outside with mom, poor little fella has been antsy. (He's okay, he just loves going outside with mom to help her)

 

[f1shie]

1,729 - A lot of walking and some side to side hops + march steps. I may have also pulled something in my shoulder/armpit area oops. For the past few days It's like, I cannot feel comfy in a resting position with my right armpit against my body? I DON'T KNOW

1,179 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Went to a small con today, t'was nice. Fluff boy also got plenty of time in the sun. Good job, fluff boy!

 

[Syrius]

 

[f1shie]

1,791 - Did the burrito mode yoga thing and some calf raises!

1,185 - Some meditation!

So I realized my workout count had been off for a couple weeks, I typo'd and didn't double check.

1,188 is apparently my meditation date. I looked back at my posts and began on January 25, 2023. And I began this thread on Sept 22, 2022 on day 479, so I subtracted 479 days from that and got May 31, 2021, which yeah sounds accurate to when I got serious here. Which gives us 1,791 days.

So somewhere along the line, I massively messed up LMAO. Looking back in early 2023 I accidentally didn't add a number or something so...

... I mean I don't know if any of y'all are really holding me to specific days at this point BUT I DON'T LIKE IT WHEN I MESS UP AIGHT. I guess I began my meditation thing on day 606 so the difference between my workout day and meditation day should be 606?

... Okay, yeah, nah, I'm bumping it down to 1,185.

I DISLIKE MATH.

I WILL MEDITATE ON THIS.

Also fluff boy had a good day outside today! He helped mom in the gardens and he barked at SCARY CARS!

 

[f1shie]

1,792 - just watching my numbers like a hawk--

PT stuff, Burrito Mode and day 1 of Groundwork Abs! Let's see if I can do the whole thing...

1,186 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Cooper is gonna do to the groomer's on Wednesday but I am a bit nervous since he has seizures there/after before. Hopefully his new medication prevents this? I, however, need to stop internally screaming.

Also I got Rick Rolled during my filling today.

Yeah.

 

[f1shie]

1,793 - PT stuff and day 2 of Groundwork Abs!

1,187 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Let's hope fluff boy has a good day at the groomers and that my headache just stops lmao ow

 

[f1shie]

1,794 - PT stuff and day 3 of Groundwork Abs!

1,188 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Fluff boy did have a good day at the groomers. He is especially fluffy now. If you want to know how fluffy, imagine the fluffiest thing. And then imagine if the fluffiest thing knew how to love.

Yeah.

 

[f1shie]

1,795 - PT stuff and day 4 of Groundwork Abs!

1,189 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Time to sleep after I just watched my friends play a 206 game of Pokemon.

Also Cooper got blueberries today. He always gets blueberries. But he also got them today.

 

[f1shie]

1,796 - PT stuff and day 5 of Groundwork Abs!

1,190 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Time to sleep in. I got home early today from work (let out early) and usually Coop gets his dinner when I get home - But since it was early he HAAAAAAD to have some blueberries.

Now, you, go get some bloobs.

 

[f1shie]

1,797 - 400 March steps since I beat Erika in Pokemon LeafGreen (I know I had other stuff I could have done but I raided the Rocket hideout like teenagers on TikTok are raiding the Scientology buildings so like, I didn't think about it). Anyway, day 6 of Groundwork Abs yay

1,191 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Also went to the farmer's market today so that was nice. Fluff boy also got a helper piece today as my brother made steak. Good helper doggo!

 

[f1shie]

1,798 - Forgot to post yesterday lol, did my PT stuff and Groundwork Abs Day 7

1,192 - Some meditation!

And today,

1,799 - Groundwork abs day 8, PT stuff and some added ab stuff!

1,193 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Coopy's next MRI is next Tuesday and agh I'm so nervous. Anyone got any advice to uh, not think about it? I also reached out to my doctors to see if we can up my anxiety meds, I need a higher dose lbr lmao

Fluff boy and I love you <3

 

[JCU]

I turn to other strong emotions when my anxiety is overwhelming. Crying from either laughter or sadness help me a lot.

 

[f1shie]

I turn to other strong emotions when my anxiety is overwhelming. Crying from either laughter or sadness help me a lot.

Good point..!!

1,800 - Nothing too special haha, just PT stuff and day 9 of the Grounded Abs stuff!

1,194 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Fluff boy and mom spent a lot of time outside. Lucky. I had to like, work.

Oh, and apparently toads are coming out! This is excellent news (I love toads/frogs)

Fluff boy and I lov u <3

 

[f1shie]

1,801 - PT stuff and day 10 of Grounded Abs!

1,195 - Some meditation!

Goodnight everyone! The toads were not out today. Prolly due to the rain. It's okay, though. Fluff boy still loves you. And so do I.

 

[f1shie]

1,802 - Went to PT and then forgot about Grounded Abs. ... I can just make it up tomorrow right

1,196 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! I am craving lavender lemonade. Please give me.

Also fluff boy and I love you.

 

[f1shie]

1,803 - PT stuff and Grounded Abs day 11!

1,197 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Cooper had some ice cream today. Yay!

Also ily. Time to sleep in!

 

[graoumia]

 

[f1shie]

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Perfect. Thank you. I am pleased.

1,804 - PT stuff and Grounded Abs day 12!

1,198 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Met up with a high school friends mom today (I've known this woman since I was a wee lass) and I was able to hold a kitten and a puppy. I cried a bit.

Also Cooper loves you. He was not jealous, though. He knows he is number 1.

 

[f1shie]

1,805 - PT stuff and Grounded Abs day 13!

1,199 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Cooper loves you. And Happy Mother's Day! Cooper's present to mom was his presence, yes.

 

[f1shie]

1,806 - Grounded Abs day 14 and some yoga!

1,200 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Tomorrow Coop goes in for a checkup MRI, prayer circle nothing has changed for our fluff boy! (Who loves you!)

 

[f1shie]

1,807 - Grounded Abs day 15 and some PT stuff!

1,201 - Some more meditation than normal!

So! Tumors have not grown and the blood/urine stuff will be back in a couple of days. Fluff boy has been given many kisses today, yes. And he still loves you.

 

[LiteraryMatcha]

So! Tumors have not grown and the blood/urine stuff will be back in a couple of days. Fluff boy has been given many kisses today, yes. And he still loves you

I'm so happy for you. I think that counts as the victory of the day.
I wish you stable results in the blood and urine.

 

[f1shie]

I'm so happy for you. I think that counts as the victory of the day.
I wish you stable results in the blood and urine.

Thanks buddy!

And yo, is that a Zagreus PFP? You have INSANELY good taste, DAMN.

No results yet, but fluff boy has gotten his share of smooches today.

1,808 - Grounded abs day 16 and some PT stuff!

1,202 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! I'm also gonna be at a ren faire this weekend in NH with the bestie so fluff boy will be watching mom and dad for me (read: he's prolly gonna chill in the garden lol)

 

[LiteraryMatcha]

And yo, is that a Zagreus PFP? You have INSANELY good taste, DAMN

It so is Zagreus indeed. And:

 

[f1shie]

It so is Zagreus indeed. And:

no u

1,809 - Moving stuff around lol gonna be going to my bestie's for the weekend AND, grounded abs day 17 (I am surprised at how I'm actually doing kind of okay with it) and some PT stuff!

1,203 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! My parents went out tonight for their anniversary dinner (#44!) so I was on Cooper duty. Or maybe Cooper was on f1shie duty. Iunno. But he protected me.

No results yet, but mom also ordered like Everything just in case so lol

 

[JCU]

Happy Anniversary to your parents!

 

[graoumia]

Happy anniversary Mum and Dad, and thanks Coop for taking care of our pussycat. ILY

 

[f1shie]

Thank you guys! <3 I'll let them know what y'all said when I get home Sunday.

1,810 - PT stuff and Grounded Abs day 18 AND BOY DID I FEEL THIS ONE

1,204 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! I beat Koga today in LeafGreen but I'll do the march steps later. Tomorrow bestie and I are at a ren faire so that'll probably do it for my steps DANGIT I REALIZED I FORGOT MY POKEWALKER AT HOME oh well. It's fine. I'm not mad.

(DO NOT LET ME FORGET IT FOR PORTCON OH GOD)

Also fluff boy loves you and didn't let me leave the house initially. I told him I'd head out after booping him and he was like "no" and proceeded to run lmao

Speaking of, he did get the blood/urine stuff back. Looks normal but we're gonna put him on meds for his Cushings so he's more comfy. Good job, fluff boy! (And vets!)

 

[graoumia]

Good job

 

[f1shie]

Good job

Thanks buddy!

1,811 - A lot of walking and that's it - My wrist hurts real bad for some reason lol so I'm just gonnaaaaa chill GOODNIGHT

1,205 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Ren faire was good, a lot of walking on uneven terrain so I am counting that as my workout. I'm gonna sleep in before I head back home tomorrow.

Cooper, as I was told, was a very good boy today. Yay!

 

[f1shie]

1,812 - Grounded abs day 19 and some PT stuff!

1,206 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Fluff boy is glad to have me back.

Also if y'all pray - We lost someone in the local cosplay/con community. Apparently she passed in March, but her celebration of life was today so a lot of us found out... today. It was a ling time coming but still, it hurts.

Love you guys, so do I and fluff boy.

 

[graoumia]

 

[JCU]

 

[f1shie]

1,813 - Just some calf raises and arm circles, I don't feel well

1,207 - Some meditation!

Thank you all.

And today we have... Another stressor I can't talk about right now, but don't worry, fluff boy is fine. I just need tips on how not to feel sick to my stomach all the time now lmao, big changes are happening and I don't like it.

 

[graoumia]

 

[f1shie]

Alright, I'll just say it, just don't repeat it on Facebook if you have me on there - We're moving. It's to a condo nearby. I've lived in the same house my entire life. I am very bad with change, to the point where I wasn't at work today as I felt sick to my stomach the whole day. The move will happen in July, and we have a lot of stuff to go through. I have a lot of crafting stuff and I'm really bad at letting things go. I do not feel well and I won't for a while.

I love you all.

1,814 - Mustered some calf raises, at least.

1,208 - Aaaand some meditation.

 

[JCU]

Try to get one room fully unpacked and settled before anything else. My preference is the kitchen, but your bedroom, or even the bathroom is enough. Being able to look at one completely finished room can be a huge relief when you're stressed out looking at everything else.

Remember we're all here when you need us

 

[f1shie]

Try to get one room fully unpacked and settled before anything else. My preference is the kitchen, but your bedroom, or even the bathroom is enough. Being able to look at one completely finished room can be a huge relief when you're stressed out looking at everything else.

Remember we're all here when you need us

Trust me I’m gonna need you guys a lot lol

I feel like so much of my progress with my anxiety and depression has been undone. Fuck, man.

1,815 - Some pt stuff and clenches/unclenches.

1,209 - managed some meditation I think. Mostly just a lot of deep breathing.

I love you guys. Thank you for dealing with me.

 

[f1shie]

1,816 - Some Pt stuff and according to Pokemon go I walked a lot.

1,210 - Lots of deep breathing at work so. Did that count?

Phew. Still got a lot to do. I’m tired though. This really did obliterate my mental health. I’ll be away this weekend but I’ll be going nuts on the holiday to get stuff done.

And yes. Fluff boy lov u.

 

[f1shie]

1,817 - Some PT stuff + clenches/unclenches

1,211 - Some meditation!

At besties until Sunday, then spending Sunday night + Monday cleaning and packing. This still honestly does not feel real, though. That house was a great place to grow up. Now I need to confront my packrat tendencies and... Ahahaha. I need a hug.

Also fluff boy lov u <3

 

[JCU]

 

[graoumia]

 

[f1shie]

1,818 - Some walkin' and PT stuff.

1,212 - Ooh I like this number - Some meditation!

Thank y'all for the hugs <3 It's... been fun lmao. So I'm gonna be going home tomorrow. I'm just gonna tell myself - Fill a storage bin of craft stuff and you win the day. And then do some extra credit.

Can we do that, y'all? I hope we can.

Love y'all. Mwah.

(so does fluff boy)

 

[f1shie]

1,819 - PT stuff!

1,213 - Some meditation!

And I am home and have filled a couple more bins full of stuff. I did the extra credit.

I'm tired and I love you.

And fluff boy lov u too.

<3

 

[Syrius]

Good job going for the extra credit!

 

[f1shie]

Good job going for the extra credit!

AND I DID MORE TODAY!!!

1,820 - Just moved and packed stuff lol, to the point where my back hurts so. But in case you don't wanna count that I DID CALF RAISES

1,214 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Let's hope we can make this week a good one and let's hope I won't lose my mind at things going on lol AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Also fluff boy is on medication for his Cushing's and it's going very well! And he got ice cream!

 

[f1shie]

1,821 - More moving and packing stuff, did some calf raises and clenches/unclenches in between.

1,215 - Some meditation!

Goodnight all! Anyone got any advice for just mentally dealing with big changes like this? Not just for like, the physical moving but... the mental stuff, since I'm gonna have to really give away a lot of stuff I spent money on lmao

(Fluff boy lov u btw)

 

[aku-chan]

When I moved last year I thought I would have a really hard time downsizing all my stuff, but once I started digging through it all, it became clear I wasn't actually all that attached, or had no idea why I was still hanging on to a lot of it (I'm talking to you Shadow Hearts 2, you may be the greatest JRPG ever made, but I've no idea how I thought I'd get a PS2 game running without buying another PS2!), although admittedly I did still take too much with me.
My advice would be to just get stuck in with the clearing out and see how it goes, it may turn out to be nowhere near as bad as you think it will be.