Still alive, wishing I wasn´t.
Consecutive Days: 121 (I think?)
I´m just gonna make one post for everything since thursday.
Bedtime: Yes
GUOT: Yes, even on the weekend, got up at 7:30 every single day, sucks butt, don´t know why.
Went on a walk either Friday or Saturday, can´t remember
Workout: Refresh a few times a day
Machine: The annoying sound is back, except for when I lean back, which is very uncomfortable
Yeah, kinda spiralled. Hard. Been drinking hard since Thursday, started smoking again (went through a whole pack in 4 days, luckily it´s empty now). My genes suck, a lot, only one in my family balding, only one with neurological problems, no decent beard growth... Only thing that´s great is my tolerance for alcohol. It takes
a lot (drank half a bottle of whiskey and 5 liters of beer on friday and was slightly buzzed) for me to get drunk and it stays in my system for a while. Started sobering up today though. Good thing though, I´ll have a bit more money as soon as I return the empty cans
My best friend finally had time for me today, so the spiral stopped, luckily. We ate pizza, watched the Tarantino Django and talked for ages. I´m starting to focus on the good things, like the last 2 Korpiklaani songs, the Hamilton Polka by Weird Al, my stupid comfort shows (Brooklyn 99 and Parks and Rec), my new comfy blankets (a gift from somebody here and, probably most importantly, my DnD group. My best friend and his GF have been doing a lot of things to support me when DMing, printing out the maps, finding and curating the playlists, playing the music so I could focus on DMing and, drumroll please, they actually bought a 3d printer after I jokingly nagged him to use his paycheck for something good for once, so now we can print minis for the players, maybe even for the bosses, as long as I find a free program or thingy to design the bosses that´s easy to use. And now that the One Shot is over, we had our first session without major problems and we´re playing by book now, prep time should take much less time. And they´re all really happy that I´m the DM now. I´m still super sad that I wont be a player anymore. My best friends GF told me today that the session with me was the first time she ever had fun playing DnD, which is basically the biggest one of the very few compliments I ever got in my life
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Congrats on your 5K!!!
), was completely overwhelmed by all the social stuff on saturday, started feeling drained and tired on sunday and monday and today another stomach bug. But, I kept going. With what little I could do. And I kinda fixed my machine. The horrible creaking sound is much less noticable, but now there´s a weird rattle. Gotta find some real tools (been screwing things in with a pair of pliers 
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